They say, “when the student is ready the teacher will appear.”

They say, “when the student is ready the teacher will appear.”

It took me years to learn the lessons I now teach. Like many driven, high achievers, I suffered in silence until it affected my health and well-being. For most of my life, I chased goals and achievements believing that my self-worth was equal to an outcome—when I have this, I will be happy. But every time I achieved what I thought I wanted, I would experience a let-down and then immediately set a new goal. I tried so hard to feel happy, chasing a dream of success. Everything I was chasing was outside of myself.

It took me years to learn the lessons I now teach. Like many driven, high achievers, I suffered in silence until it affected my health and well-being. For most of my life, I chased goals and achievements believing that my self-worth was equal to an outcome—when I have this, I will be happy. But every time I achieved what I thought I wanted, I would experience a let-down and then immediately set a new goal. I tried so hard to feel happy, chasing a dream of success. Everything I was chasing was outside of myself.

I experienced stomach pains and migraines on a regular basis. I was frequently sick, restless,
short-tempered, impatient, and resentful of others around me. I became obsessed with dieting and rigid workout regiments, trying to outrun and outwork the emotions I was feeling. At night, when I couldn’t escape the stress, I would wind down with wine. I thought this was normal. I wasn’t the only one self-soothing. In fact, most of the people I was closest to were suffering in secret, fueled by coffee and ambition, stressing about work, yet bragging about their achievements.

I had become so accustomed to stress and burnout over the years, I had no idea how to
recognize the symptoms. It started with panic attacks, which led to fear of panic attacks, which led to fear of driving and leaving the house. I could no longer endure the emotions I was feeling. I was completely lost and hopeless. I became afraid of myself, and afraid I couldn’t mother my own child.

The only solution I knew of at the time was conventional mental health care, so I found a
therapist who took our insurance, and saw her in-person on a weekly basis. It was helpful to talk through things, but after a few months of repeating the same past experiences and reliving current emotions, I still wasn’t progressing. Eventually she fired me, stating, “If you’re unwilling to go on medication, I can’t help you.” I did end up going on medication, but it only helped relieve the symptoms of anxiety. Without addressing the root of the problem, I knew I was never going to fully heal.

The main lesson I learned when going through all of this was that treating symptoms without
understanding why they are happening does not truly heal the root cause of the issues. For the past 12 years, this is the problem I have been working to solve in my own healing and
transformation.

is to help women like me reclaim their freedom and end the cycle of suffering for success so they can begin their healing process before it affects their health and
wellbeing.

Think about these two words for a moment. Suffering has a negative connotation, right?
Suffer—to feel pain or stress. No one wants to suffer. Endurance on the other hand is
honorable. Athletes endure, military heroes endure, successful people endure.

But what does endurance mean?

It’s the act of                           hardship or stress.

Are we programmed to believe we should withstand stress forever in order to achieve success?

Think about these two words for a moment. Suffering has a negative connotation, right? Suffer—to feel pain or stress. No one wants to suffer. Endurance on the other hand is honorable. Athletes endure, military heroes endure, successful people endure.

But what does endurance mean?

It’s the act of                          hardship or stress.

Are we programmed to believe we should withstand stress forever in order to achieve success?

I had become so accustomed to stress and burnout over the years, I had no idea how to recognize the symptoms. It started with panic attacks, which led to fear of panic attacks, which led to fear of driving and leaving the house. I could no longer endure the emotions I was feeling. I was completely lost and hopeless. I became afraid of myself, and afraid I couldn’t mother my own child.

The only solution I knew of at the time was conventional mental health care, so I found a therapist who took our insurance, and saw her in-person on a weekly basis. It was helpful to talk through things, but after a few months of repeating the same past experiences and reliving current emotions, I still wasn’t progressing. Eventually she fired me, stating, “If you’re unwilling to go on medication, I can’t help you.” I did end up going on medication, but it only helped relieve the symptoms of anxiety. Without addressing the root of the problem, I knew I was never going to fully heal.

The main lesson I learned when going through all of this was that treating symptoms without understanding why they are happening does not truly heal the root cause of the issues. For the past 12 years, this is the problem I have been working to solve in my own healing and transformation.

withstanding

withstanding

I experienced stomach pains and migraines on a regular basis. I was frequently sick, restless, short-tempered, impatient, and resentful of others around me. I became obsessed with dieting and rigid workout regiments, trying to outrun and outwork the emotions I was feeling. At night, when I couldn’t escape the stress, I would wind down with wine. I thought this was normal. I wasn’t the only one self-soothing. In fact, most of the people I was closest to were suffering in secret, fueled by coffee and ambition, stressing about work, yet bragging about their achievements.

It wasn’t suffering. It was enduring.

It wasn’t suffering.
It was enduring.

That’s what hustle culture would have us believe,
and that’s what I believed.

Until I was 18 months post-partum and had a nervous breakdown.

Until I was 18 months post-partum and had a nervous breakdown.

That’s what hustle culture would have us believe, and that’s what I believed.

I endured.

I endured.

my
personal
mission

If you are self-soothing, looking for an escape, and dreaming of finding a way out of the vicious
cycle of stress you’re in, then you are ready to uproot.

If you are self-soothing, looking for an escape, and dreaming of finding a way out of the vicious
cycle of stress you’re in, then
you
are
ready
to
uproot.

my personal mission

is to help women like me reclaim their freedom and end the cycle of suffering for success so they can begin their healing process before it affects their health and wellbeing.

Because when I was at my worst, I needed a teacher who could help me heal without judgment and who could help me shift my mindset so I could get to the root of the issues, stop suffering, and start living a balanced and joyful life.

Because when I was at my worst, I needed a teacher who could help me heal without judgment and who could help me shift my mindset so I could get to the root of the issues, stop suffering, and start living a balanced and joyful life.